Welp as you all know (unless you don't) i am a juinior in high school this year, and it aint all that bad, class sucks
 though other than that, well...  A wise man once said, "never allow your schooling to interfear with your education" 
 actually i think it might've been Mark Twain but don't quote me ;) Well lately i've been trying to bring my grades up so 
 that i have a chance at collge - never mind my psats were about 1300 and my SAT's will more than likely be higher although
 dont get me started on standardized tests. See the thing is all through elementary school and through juinior high i was
 well what i suppose you'd call a 'model student'. You know high honors, the works. I dont remember exactly when it started
 but i seem to think late freshmen year, i dunno i just started slacking. Actually more of a loss of motivation i suppose,
 generally it hinged upon the fact that i rarely did homework but my grades dropped steadily. Now i dont party, not a pot
 head ot any such thing - i really don't know what happened. Now please, please dont read into this anything that isn't
 written but an interesting fact i've noted but most all of the truely intellegent people i know in the school tend to get
 lower than averadge grades, much lower than they are capable of. No names of course but anyways. At this point in my life
 it seems it is time to start with the collage applications and preparations for a true carrer. The problem it i really have
 no direction in my life at this point in my life, i mean sure i'm happy with my life and i have plenty of things to work at
 but nothing to constitue a lifetime, or even a major investment of my time, well besides writing rambiling pieces like this.
 heh. But considering i'm expected to know what i want to do with my life at this time is truely unsetteling to me as i
 really have no inkling of what that could be. I mean sure there are thing's that i enjoy, there are even things that i am
 quite good at, in all modesty of course. In fact i am already certified in several (computer related) things covering a
 slightly broad range of expertice. All the way from Photoshop - my favorite graphic design/editing tool to 'computer
 electronics' to WWW concepts. so even though there are certianly things that i COULD do i do not know what i WANT or WISH
 to do. I've looked into the air-force semi-seriously, hell i even work at a farm during the summer, though it is doubtful
 farming would even be considered by me as a long term carreer choice.

To Be Continued - it's late - i just remembered i' was goung to write an english essay for tomoorow - aww well i'm going to
 		  bed


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